Starting something over after a setback can be incredibly difficult. "Why do it again, I just fail anyway." Our emotions get the best of us sometimes. With those I know who have had sobriety, and then went out again, it seems extremely difficult to come back. There is fear in admitting defeat. Many times they have to clean up damge done again while using. To not "feel" seems the only answer. However, many times I get to see them again, and I am grateful for their experience. It instills fear in me, and gives me the opportunity to possibly help them. Both of these things keep me sober, one day at a time.
If you have given up on a new years resolution already, take a look at it again. Give it a shot, and maybe re-focus the amount of time you put into it. Maybe another approach is more manageable. I step away from things I like to do often, and then pick them up again. Such is life. 😄