The same scenario happened when I surrendered to my addictions, and let God take control of my life. The only thing I thought about was being sober, helping others, getting to meetings, and being grateful for what I was given. It lasted a little while, before I started to strive again to have a so called "better" life. As I work to increase my happiness, I realize it is a lie. You do not need to work to be happy, you need to surrender to be happy. Being humble, living in gratitude, and showing compassion makes us happy. Letting go of frustration, because we can only control what God lets us control. After that, it is out of our hands. I am writing this, as I know it in this moment, and I hope to remember it later. I will still strive, it is part of what I do. Maybe I will read this, and let go.